That Perfect Fairytale

Shalala

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 14:32:03 GMT

No, I did not delete all the entries because that would be mean pure stupidity. I merely locked them up.

Since so many of you have already found out about this, well CYA. I've moved

Disappointed

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 06:15:25 GMT

I'm disappointed with a certain somebody, whether she realises it or not.

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 17:04:51 GMT

I can understand why mommy says that I'm temperemental now. -______-" It's either that or I'm just plain pms-ing. I'm slightly bothered by what * wrote. On top of that, I'm pissed off at Daryl because of my lack of attention. I don't entirely blame him though after all, with him working it's so much obvious that he will not have time for me. The only time that he does is when he calls after he reaches home and by that time, I'd be too excited and giggling that I forget every damn thing that I wanted to say to him. Talking to him is so hard and like what he said, I'm better at expressing myself in text. True. But for the first time, I wanted to call him and ask him something pretty deep. I wanted to know that in days/months/years to come, if he does still love me, will his feelings for me change? Could there actually be a possibility that we will still be in love and responsible to each other and this relationship but the spark will not be the same again? After all, it's happened in marriages. Will it happen to our relationship? I was desperate to hear his voice and talk things out (although we did'nt have an argument) yet I was turned down. Do you even know how frustration adds up when I know that I can't be smsing him that much? Grr. I need to keep myself sane and I swear painkillers are wearing off on me.

Urgh

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 14:24:59 GMT

I'm feeling very very pissed off with what he said to me. I am at the point where I am damn close to fisting the wall.

Note To Self

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 12:44:18 GMT

I washed my white's today. I washed mom and my daily clothings. I hanged them out to dry. I need a job. I want to buy more clothes and shoes. I want to pay my own bill.

Sundayy

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 07:27:36 GMT

I was thinking to myself that should I be able to snitch some online time, I'd be blogging in my livejournal and I am! Of course my livejournal serves my priority right now although blogger does have good archives and memories but it's starting to get really messy over there. Haters and flamers. Well Daryl has been a sweetheart by watching over my tag board without me asking.

So yesterday, I left off saying that I was starting to get very agitated with him. Yeah well, I did want to use his laptop but he said he'd be studying! Instead, he fell asleep for three whole hours leaving me bored which resulted in top scores for collapse and bejeweled2. I got irritated because it was already seven odd and we had to go out for dinner before he has to send me home and catch the last train at the same time!!Goodness gracious me. Although his mom did come in a few times nagging at him to wake up and not leave me alone, I was too pissed to acknowledge that he woke up everytime he said a few words. Which of course led him to falling back asleep. There was this instant though, that he was getting flustered over his mom's constant waking him up that he kicked me chair and I shouted at him.

Thankfully, everything ended there. He got up and washed up before helping burn the pictures into a disc. After which he asked if I was hungry. Still a little ticked off with him, I sarcasticly said yes. Being the ever so lovable boyfriend, he went to make egg mayo sandwiches for me. Then he suggested ordering pizza and since I was terribly hungry, I agreed.
For the first time in a long time, I actually had a whole lot to eat. Two slices of pizza and a few more cheesy bites, not to mention the drumlets! Heh. Daryl was a real sweetheart when he gave in to me by letting me have all the drumlets while he ate the wings. Aww.

Gosh and I have to admit that Daryl can look good in pink! =) So as always since I took a bus to his school earlier, we took a cab back. The taxi uncle was superb I tell you. I grinned at Daryl and said, "Well at least our cab fair will be lesser!" In the cab, I managed to tell him random things but important events that happened to me before we were together. Stuff about mom ending up in the hospital and all that and honestly speaking, I could not feel any better being able to be too comfortable with him.

Our relationship has definitely improved. He called me last night while he was heading back and when he reached home. In turn, I called him when I got up today. =)) Things are definately heading the right way.

Strange thing is, my eyebags are getting really bad and alot of people have been complaining about it. I have no idea why but you see, it's really hard for me to turn in early! Even if I was in bed at 11pm, I would'nt be able to fall asleep till 2 am or 3 am. =/ It is pretty frustrating actually. Well alright now. Till I can do a better update, I'm fine and so is Daryl. =)

Lalalala

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 07:49:42 GMT

I'm currently at Daryl's house doing nothing. I was supposed to use the internet to check out my stuff and turns out, I don't really have anything to check out. =/ While he is desperately trying to catch a nap, I'm annoying the crap out of him. Heh, I have two brothers for a particular reason. To learn how to annoy the shit out of someone. Hehe.

Done Deal

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 15:03:09 GMT

Mom and I headed to Geylang Serai today to look for a contractor that could do both the flooring and cabinets/wardrobe. Finally finalised everything and will probably have to do a draft of how I would like my wardrobe compartment to be like next week.

I will be meeting up with Daryl tomorrow, picking him up from school. =) Though he has to study and I might eventually get bored but hopefully, it'll be a blast having his company.

Golly Beans

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 16:13:27 GMT

Can't seem to comprehend. Can't seem to get it together. Can't explain the feeling.

On another issue bestie says to celebrate, my heart says not to.

Random Thought

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 15:45:49 GMT

This thought suddenly popped into my head. You know how there are these quizes online for you do that sorta depicts the type of person you are? Well, there is one in particular that depicts the kind of person you are by the type of lingerie/pyjamas you wear.

Which is why I thought to myself, I am the kind of person that would love to sleep in really pretty lingerie and nighties( a girly girl ) but than again there are days that I would want to just sleep in a really huge t-shirt ( a guy's kinda girl ) so then, what would that make me?

National Day

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 17:59:47 GMT

A year ago on this very day, I was breathing down nicotine like there was no tomorrow.
Downing a pack of marlboro reds within a few hours. Needless to say on this very day a year ago, I could see the end to our relationship and it eventually did.

This year, I get to spend time with him. However, just that few hours. No fireworks, no nothing. I can't imagine if I should be feeling happy, contented or upset at the moment. Till I put my thoughts together, I am one heavily confused chick.

Note To Self

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 09:44:05 GMT

I learn how to be contented before I am able to move on in life.

Filled And Gone Again

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 18:10:57 GMT

I just received news that my brother will be shifting on this Monday. I'm hurting, really bad. =((

I Could Fly So High With You

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 15:30:05 GMT

For what it's worth, my main blogging arena. =))

www.dalilprincess.blogspot.com

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 04:04:18 GMT

Feeling superbly confused right now. Casually passed a remark to him and as always, he explodes.It's not that I don't want to be understanding but once in a while, I need the attention badly. The thing about him is, he does'nt realise that the attention he gives me is inconsistent. When he has the time, I've given 24-7 of his attention but when he's caught up with school work and stuff, I've got to shut up and lay low. How difficult is that. Tired of all this man. I don't know when I'd fuse again.

I'm busy now. I shall continue this later on today.

My New Toy

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 02:41:52 GMT

With a "new toy" to play with, I feel as though I had just betrayed blogger that has been serving me almost pretty well for the past four to five years. =/ With posts that can be viewed privately, I can let out a huge sigh of relief. Sometimes the things I say may be perceived otherwise depending on the person reading. When it comes to my inner most feelings, I don't see a need to let it all out and then be judged by the person that wrongly perceives my text.

Have I not mentioned that it is pretty surprising that I've turned to livejournal. However, my main reason is only because I can really call this "MySpace" without having anyone ranting and reading about my innermost feelings. Here, I am the right and authority.

Dang. Have I not mentioned how much I'm loving this space?

Testing

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 16:45:21 GMT

Well, hello a little more privacy. =)