dalilprincesse

No, I did not delete all the entries because that would be mean pure stupidity. I merely locked them up.

Since so many of you have already found out about this, well CYA. I've moved

I'm disappointed with a certain somebody, whether she realises it or not.

I can understand why mommy says that I'm temperemental now. -______-" It's either that or I'm just plain pms-ing. I'm slightly bothered by what * wrote. On top of that, I'm pissed off at Daryl because of my lack of attention. I don't entirely blame him though after all, with him working it's so much obvious that he will not have time for me. The only time that he does is when he calls after he reaches home and by that time, I'd be too excited and giggling that I forget every damn thing that I wanted to say to him. Talking to him is so hard and like what he said, I'm better at expressing myself in text. True. But for the first time, I wanted to call him and ask him something pretty deep. I wanted to know that in days/months/years to come, if he does still love me, will his feelings for me change? Could there actually be a possibility that we will still be in love and responsible to each other and this relationship but the spark will not be the same again? After all, it's happened in marriages. Will it happen to our relationship? I was desperate to hear his voice and talk things out (although we did'nt have an argument) yet I was turned down. Do you even know how frustration adds up when I know that I can't be smsing him that much? Grr. I need to keep myself sane and I swear painkillers are wearing off on me.

If it was'nt for the weird tantrums and overflowing emotions, our planned out date would have gone very well. Nontheless, I still love him all the same. <3

With eight hours of sleep, I felt rejuvenated and somehow managed to get up on time. I showered and got ready to head over to Khatib to pick Weilin up from school. I arrived 15 minutes early and waited an extra 10 minutes before she ended school. We cabbed over to her place since the weather was extremely scorching.

After she was finally done getting ready, we headed over to Woodlands. Upon realising that there was a pasar malam at the field next to Causeway Point, I suddenly felt like a child jumping for joy. In my mind the words, RAMLY BURGER started blinking hysterically. =p The atmosphere at the pasar malam was like hell's hole, worse than the scorching sun. Gracious me. We had our round before heading over to the library for a mugging session.

It was pretty productive for me since I actually went through half the chapter of angle properties at such a breeze. Like what I told Weilin, if my exam was tested on just angle properties, it'll be a defo distinction for me. Unfortunately though, it is'nt. After three fruitful hours of mugging, we headed over to Causeway Point for dinner.

Before that, we stopped over at Causeway point's TimeZone for a round of basketball hoops. Here was where our twisted day started. First, some really short fella wearing a cap asked Weilin for her number. Then, Weilin realised someone smiling really retardedly at her. We decided not to entertain him and continued before leaving the place. While we were making our way out of TimeZone outside QB cut, the retarded fella ran past me before he slipped his hand into Weilin's shorts and ran off despite her pulling him by the collar. It was kind of shocking for the both of us. Weilin called her bf Derek while I told her to calm down and take a seat. Noticing that he was still loitering around, I decided to inform the security guard but he could not understand what I was saying.

I got irritated and flustered when I saw the fella loitering on the same level as us this time. I immediately took Weilin by the hand and literally pulled her along up to the 7th floor where there were a few security guards standing there. Unexpectedly, the fella ran up the escalator and assaulted Weilin before making a very quick getaway. I ran off leaving Weilin on the ground to inform the security guard to catch hold of that guy. When I went to get Weilin, she was crying on the floor with alot of people surrounding her and not one of them volunteered to help. Stupid Singaporeans. Only after I helped her up that a man in black got her a chair, warm water and tissue paper.

I told the security guard to call for the police in order to make a report. After which, the fella was still missing. While giving our statement, Weilin's bf arrived with his friend. After we were done, we headed over to Gelare for a late dinner. (Well it was'nt even dinner since it was waffles with ice cream.) =/

Since my older brother did'nt want to pick me up, I took a cab back home.

The situation was'nt based on who wore lesser since Weilin was wearing a jacket over her top while her bag covered her ass. On the other hand, there I was parading around in a tank top while carrying a bag that well did'nt really do any covering.

I honestly did'nt think that it'd have happened to Weilin, in front of me. I was shaking throughout the whole ordeal yet I had to brave and being an older god sister, I had to make sure I could play my part.

I'm feeling very very pissed off with what he said to me. I am at the point where I am damn close to fisting the wall.

I washed my white's today. I washed mom and my daily clothings. I hanged them out to dry. I need a job. I want to buy more clothes and shoes. I want to pay my own bill.

I was thinking to myself that should I be able to snitch some online time, I'd be blogging in my livejournal and I am! Of course my livejournal serves my priority right now although blogger does have good archives and memories but it's starting to get really messy over there. Haters and flamers. Well Daryl has been a sweetheart by watching over my tag board without me asking.

So yesterday, I left off saying that I was starting to get very agitated with him. Yeah well, I did want to use his laptop but he said he'd be studying! Instead, he fell asleep for three whole hours leaving me bored which resulted in top scores for collapse and bejeweled2. I got irritated because it was already seven odd and we had to go out for dinner before he has to send me home and catch the last train at the same time!!Goodness gracious me. Although his mom did come in a few times nagging at him to wake up and not leave me alone, I was too pissed to acknowledge that he woke up everytime he said a few words. Which of course led him to falling back asleep. There was this instant though, that he was getting flustered over his mom's constant waking him up that he kicked me chair and I shouted at him.

Thankfully, everything ended there. He got up and washed up before helping burn the pictures into a disc. After which he asked if I was hungry. Still a little ticked off with him, I sarcasticly said yes. Being the ever so lovable boyfriend, he went to make egg mayo sandwiches for me. Then he suggested ordering pizza and since I was terribly hungry, I agreed.
For the first time in a long time, I actually had a whole lot to eat. Two slices of pizza and a few more cheesy bites, not to mention the drumlets! Heh. Daryl was a real sweetheart when he gave in to me by letting me have all the drumlets while he ate the wings. Aww.

Gosh and I have to admit that Daryl can look good in pink! =) So as always since I took a bus to his school earlier, we took a cab back. The taxi uncle was superb I tell you. I grinned at Daryl and said, "Well at least our cab fair will be lesser!" In the cab, I managed to tell him random things but important events that happened to me before we were together. Stuff about mom ending up in the hospital and all that and honestly speaking, I could not feel any better being able to be too comfortable with him.

Our relationship has definitely improved. He called me last night while he was heading back and when he reached home. In turn, I called him when I got up today. =)) Things are definately heading the right way.

Strange thing is, my eyebags are getting really bad and alot of people have been complaining about it. I have no idea why but you see, it's really hard for me to turn in early! Even if I was in bed at 11pm, I would'nt be able to fall asleep till 2 am or 3 am. =/ It is pretty frustrating actually. Well alright now. Till I can do a better update, I'm fine and so is Daryl. =)

I'm currently at Daryl's house doing nothing. I was supposed to use the internet to check out my stuff and turns out, I don't really have anything to check out. =/ While he is desperately trying to catch a nap, I'm annoying the crap out of him. Heh, I have two brothers for a particular reason. To learn how to annoy the shit out of someone. Hehe.

Mom and I headed to Geylang Serai today to look for a contractor that could do both the flooring and cabinets/wardrobe. Finally finalised everything and will probably have to do a draft of how I would like my wardrobe compartment to be like next week.

I will be meeting up with Daryl tomorrow, picking him up from school. =) Though he has to study and I might eventually get bored but hopefully, it'll be a blast having his company.

Can't seem to comprehend. Can't seem to get it together. Can't explain the feeling.

On another issue bestie says to celebrate, my heart says not to.

Been cooping up at home these days with no particular reason why.
Although I do make exceptions for when my closest gf's or bf asks me out.

When I woke up in the morning,da ge was home! =))
Bestie came over after she ended school around mid noon.
We all had our tv time addiction with 14 Hours and Mean Girls.
After which, da ge took us all to the new house.

We accompanied mom and da ge while they washed the house.
I mean, Amanda and I did want to help out but we
were too dressed to get all wet and dirty.
Mom was'nt complaining that we were'nt helping though.
In fact, Amanda, da ge and I were providing ourself with
a little humour just to enjoy "this" time while it lasted.
It sort of adds to what I would call family time.
Although Amanda is'nt exactly family, the thing about my
family and gf's is that when we are in the presence of each
other's company it almost is like family.
I love the way my mom and brother makes them feel home and
I especially love the way my gf's can adapt to my not so perfect family.
It's times like this that I feel very optimistic and
thank god for their presence which contributes to making a difference
in my life. There, life is'nt that bad is it or maybe it is?

After we were done with the house, Amanda and I took
a train down to City Hall for our GirlyBimbotic moments.
We were both complaining about how much we've been missing out
cause she's been busy spending her time in school while
I just happen to decide to fall out with the world and stay home.
However, we found out that we were'nt exactly missing out on anything.
Although I did spot a few "wants" in Topshop,
there was'nt anything much apart from that.

We both stopped by Gelare since it happened to be Tuesday,
which meant waffles go at half price!! Hehe.
We people watched, talked about our bf's and exchanged
our opinions regarding certain topics and it was absolute time worthy.

Feeling a little hungry after walking and talking,
we decided to try the Herbal Egg from one of those push carts.
I swear, the first time was really horrible.
It was so bitter and disgusting that I just gave up. =(
The cup corn that I got from them was worth it though.

The arcade later on was pretty fun.
Amanda and I had our must have daytona race, lol.
It is pretty annoying that she beats me all the time
because she only does that by cheating!
She always rams my car.. =((
Well it was after she introduced me to the very addictive
game that I got sooo caught up!

Now all I want to do is sit in Suntec's arcade
with ten one dollar coins in hand and a big spoonful of luck.

Mom was pretty surprised that I arrived home really early.

Well, that's about it I guess. =/

This thought suddenly popped into my head. You know how there are these quizes online for you do that sorta depicts the type of person you are? Well, there is one in particular that depicts the kind of person you are by the type of lingerie/pyjamas you wear.

Which is why I thought to myself, I am the kind of person that would love to sleep in really pretty lingerie and nighties( a girly girl ) but than again there are days that I would want to just sleep in a really huge t-shirt ( a guy's kinda girl ) so then, what would that make me?

A year ago on this very day, I was breathing down nicotine like there was no tomorrow.
Downing a pack of marlboro reds within a few hours. Needless to say on this very day a year ago, I could see the end to our relationship and it eventually did.

This year, I get to spend time with him. However, just that few hours. No fireworks, no nothing. I can't imagine if I should be feeling happy, contented or upset at the moment. Till I put my thoughts together, I am one heavily confused chick.

I learn how to be contented before I am able to move on in life.

I just received news that my brother will be shifting on this Monday. I'm hurting, really bad. =((

The previous post was in a moment of anger and overwhelmed emotions. He was right, spot on. The reason why I cried was because for the first time, he almost gave in to his emotions. It showed how much I meant to him. I hurt him and for once, he could'nt control it. For the first time, it hurt so bad that I walked away from that hug and kiss. Caught a glance and I watched as he face changed. I did'nt bother to look back. I'm really sorry. I'm really sorry for all that. I really feel bad for the way I treated him. He honestly did'nt deserve all that.

He waited for an hour. I watched from the dark and I read his body language but somehow, I let my pride get in the way. I know that it should'nt be the case anymore on the account that we've been together for so long now but I did'nt know how to face him. As I watched him drive away, I prayed that he'd stay but the answer was right in my face. That noone will wait forever..

Well, put the sour things aside. Daryl came and pick me up slightly earlier today. After which, we headed straight to Chua Chu Kang to collect my birkenstocks from my cousin. Me, being the air head gave the wrong directions which resulted in a very long journey around the world before arriving.

Daryl being a sweetheart, took me to Heeren's Sakae Sushi for dinner. While waiting for a table, we took a walk down to Le Meridien to make a purchase of a pair of aviators for his sister. The pair that I picked turned out to be damaged. Upon making the switch for a newer piece, the bf decided that another pair would be more suitable for his sister. Without hesistation, I decided to make the purchase of the ones I picked out earlier. The bf a sweetheart as always, paid for it.

Dinner at Sakae was great. After which, we headed down to Clark Quay. The remaining sequence of events will not be depicted but the bf and I took some great pictures. =))

Here goes..



I must of course remind myself not be blinded by my dream, that I'm living not for myself but for others. Hey. Since when did anyone consider about my feelings afterall?

Just so happens, I still have my other entries locked. =D

For what it's worth, my main blogging arena. =))

www.dalilprincess.blogspot.com

Feeling superbly confused right now. Casually passed a remark to him and as always, he explodes.It's not that I don't want to be understanding but once in a while, I need the attention badly. The thing about him is, he does'nt realise that the attention he gives me is inconsistent. When he has the time, I've given 24-7 of his attention but when he's caught up with school work and stuff, I've got to shut up and lay low. How difficult is that. Tired of all this man. I don't know when I'd fuse again.

I'm busy now. I shall continue this later on today.

With a "new toy" to play with, I feel as though I had just betrayed blogger that has been serving me almost pretty well for the past four to five years. =/ With posts that can be viewed privately, I can let out a huge sigh of relief. Sometimes the things I say may be perceived otherwise depending on the person reading. When it comes to my inner most feelings, I don't see a need to let it all out and then be judged by the person that wrongly perceives my text.

Have I not mentioned that it is pretty surprising that I've turned to livejournal. However, my main reason is only because I can really call this "MySpace" without having anyone ranting and reading about my innermost feelings. Here, I am the right and authority.

Dang. Have I not mentioned how much I'm loving this space?